Co-creating 2010

The Star Goddess Dances Creation

It seems everyone is writing the intentions they are setting for 2010, whether they be in the form of goals, or dream decrees, a word for the year, or vision boards.

I have a hard time with goals. I often feel indecisive about formally writing anything down out of fear.  Fear of failing. Fear of changing my mind — yet again. Fear that I may miss a great opportunity. Fear of being constrained.  I am continuing amazed that I actually get anything done because I have this aversion to “putting it down on paper.”

But I do.  Funny that…

But lately, I have felt blown about by the winds. Not sure which way to turn, which path to trod, which choices to pick on the buffet of life.  So, I decided to try this goal thing this year, after reading a bunch of wonderful blog posts and talking with my BFF, Ketzirah.

Artwork/Creativity

  1. Finish the three paintings that have been knocking on my mental door for a while.
  2. Learn a new jewelry making technique.
  3. Embellish my Touch Drawings from the Gathering to show at Artomatic.

Community (In addition to the regular commitments I have, I want to do these very specific things.)

  1. Increase enrollment for Reflections classes by 50%.
  2. Find a year-round location for Becoming monthly circles that meets our needs and is within our budget.
  3. Offer 5 Touch Drawings sessions in Baltimore and DC each.

Career (I have been hiding at my job over the last 2 years. I want to shine again, feel confident, and enjoy my work.)

  1. Coordinate an interpretive writing workshop for SI writers featuring an outside speaker.
  2. Focus on being present in my work and enjoying my work everyday.
  3. Put together a literature review, standards, and guidelines on interpretive writing for my museum.

Family and Friends

  1. Go out with friends at least once a month.
  2. Entertain friends–as a couple– at least once a month.
  3. Go out with my husband on a date night at least twice a month.

Finance

  1. Pay off 50% of my personal loan, and 25% of my personal credit card debt.
  2. Save any extra money coming in from art sales or workshops toward. . . (I’m really starting to feel fear creep in on these goals.) buying a hot tub.

Health (I started Weight Watchers in July and have lost 48 pounds. I am feeling great and want to continue toward looking and feeling HAWT at 40.)

  1. Lose 45 pounds by my 40th birthday.
  2. Run a 5K race.

Home

  1. Have my current list of improvements done by July 1, 2010.
  2. Design back patio w/ hot tub.

Spirituality

  1. Deepen my relationship and understanding of Hanuman.
  2. Deepen my conscious relationship with my animus.
  3. Step forward to meet my growing edge and to keep my eyes open to my work and my worth in the world.
  4. To trust in myself and that voice that wells up from within and beyond.

And that brings me to my word for 2010: TRUST.

Trust in myself. Trust that if I trust myself that things will work out fine. Trust that I will make good decisions. Trust that I am shiny. Trust that I do bring value to the work that I do.

And if at the end of the year, I am able to trust myself and the universe more, then I will count this year as a success.

Much love and many blessings from an open and strong heart,

Angela

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photo: The Star Goddess Dances the Universe into Creation, digital collage by Angela Raincatcher

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