Monthly Archives: April 2008

In Memory of my Grandmother

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The body of my maternal grandmother, Jane Ellen Overall, died this last week on Wednesday, April 16, 10:03pm, at the age of 82.

I was taught to believe that her spirit lives on and is now reunited with her husband, my grandfather, who passed away over twenty years ago. On some level, I want to believe that. It would have made her happy.

On another level, I have to admit that I don’t know, and may never know, if our spirits continue, shaped by our physical lives and personality, after our bodies die.

I know what I don’t believe — in a heaven of eternal reward and a hell of eternal punishment. They don’t fit with my concept of the Ultimate nor with my experience of life. If life is a combination of a myriad of experiences, then I would expect the afterlife, or future lives, or whatever if there is anything, to be a similar combination. I suspect that anything eternally without change would be numbing after a while. And the universe is too varied for that.

Perhaps when we die, we get what we expect — a kind of mentally constructed reality that lasts as long as we need it to. That might be nice, or not, depending on what one expects consciously and unconsciously.

Perhaps when we die, the part of us that is not physical regains its full non-physical awareness. Perhaps there are things that can only be experienced and perceived within our human form, and things that can only be experienced and perceived in non-physical existence. One is not better than the other — just different.

All of this assumes that there is a non-physical, or spiritual, or energetic, part of us that survives after the physical body dies. For the most part, I do believe that. But there is a niggling uncertainty that I have struggled to live with. Perhaps we all do.

Because really, truthfully, we do not know.

But because it was her truth, and her dream, I wish my grandparents happiness together again in each other’s arms.



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I am showing my art for the first time publicly. I will be exhibiting my Qabalah series. I am excited and nervous by turns. Wish me luck!

What is Artomatic, you ask?

Held regularly since 1999, Artomatic is the Washington, D.C., area’s one-of-a-kind multimedia event, involving hundreds of regional artists, performers and volunteers. The free event is an arts extravaganza, featuring paintings, sculpture, photography, music, theater, poetry, dance and workshops. The 2008 event is being held May 9-June 15 in the Washington, D.C., NoMa neighborhood.

It is free to get in and the hours are: Wednesdays and Thursdays, 5:00pm – 10:00pm; Fridays, Saturdays, Sundays, Noon to 2:00am; Closed on Mondays and Tuesdays.

The address is Capitol Plaza I 1200 First Street, NE (1st and M Streets NE), Washington, DC 20002. Metro: Red Line, New York Ave., M St exit.

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